In a few weeks, I'll be graduating from High School and I've been thinking about a lot of things but, one thing has been in the back of my mind for a while. My freshman year of high school, I thought I was the only kid there that had even known what Animé was. After a few weeks I realized I was wrong. There were actually a few Animé fans at our school. One thing though. They were all Goths. Now it's not that I have a problem with Goths, as a matter of fact I love them, but at the time I'd never seen one before except for on television. I remembered that the Goth kids hung out at the school court yard during lunch. I wanted to go out and talk to them but they looked so intimidating all in a group like that so, I decided just to leave the matter be. One day before school I snuck into the school's library to read some of my manga. The teachers at my school are so strict about reading in class so I had to do it some way. I was right in the middle of Yu-Gi-Oh Volume 7 when I heard a chuckling sound above me. I looked up to see one of the Goth kids (I found out later his name was Jonathon) looking down at me smiling. I was thinking "Oh $#!% I'm in trouble." But he just smiled and said "Yu-Gi-Oh huh? I forgot they had a manga for that show." I just nodded. "So you duel?" he asked me. I shrugged and said "Occasionally, nobody seems to want to duel anymore." He laughed and said "I hear that." We had an hour long convo about Yu-Gi-Oh. Then the bell rung and we had to go to class. Before we parted ways, he invited me to hang out with him and his friends at lunch. And the rest was history. For that year I finally had found a group or a Clique to hang out with. (Did I spell that right?) But then, the end of the year came, and unfortunately for me, all of my friends just happened to be seniors. We hung out a lot that summer but, when they all went to college we didn't talk as often as we used to. And, when school started I was alone again. Until that is, I saw a kid named Josh reading a Shonen Jump magazine. Then, just like Jonathon before me, I invited the kid into my world. Since then I have introduced over 29 kids into the world of Animé. (Yes I've kept track lol.) And now, it's my turn to graduate and I feel like I'm leaving them behind. We've gotten so close over the past few years and I'm not sure I want to let them go. With me going to college it's going to be hard for us hang out and stuff as much as we used to. Over the past few days, almost every day they tell me how much they are going to miss me. I know I'm going to miss them too but every time they say it makes me sadder and sadder. It's like a sensei leaving his/her pupils when there is nothing left to be taught to them. Like on Kung Fu Panda. I guess I'll find some way to get through this battle.

In my english class, I had always thought that most of the kids that were in it were idiots, and for the most part I'm right. But, I couldn't believe how wrong I was about one of the boys in my class. The outer appearance of a thug, with the hidden talent of a poet. It struck me by complete surprise. This particular boy had one of his stories read out loud to the class today to show us all the example of a good character description. His words, painted a clear picture in my head as to how his made up character was supposed to look. It was almost like, I was seeing the woman right in front of me. I didn't think any of the guys at my school had that kind of power. This has made me view this guy in a whole new light. Normally, I wouldn't have tried to talk to him but now, I want to know everything about him. If fact, I'm afraid that this guy,....has captured my heart,....with his words. Is that even possible? It must be. I know exactly what I'm feeling. For most of my days in high school I've been searching for someone that had shared personal interests of mine, especially writting. And now such a person exists and, I think I'm a bit afraid to approach him about it. Such wonderful talent. I just don't know what do with myself now. What am I to do?

I have always proclaimed myself to be a future anime artist. Even though my drawings aren't really all that good. But, that's what I always say to myself. I've been looking through some of my old sketch books and I've come to find that what I've been telling myself is a little bit of a lie. Yes, my characters have the big eyes and the somewhat big boobs and lot of other anime characteristics but, I've been leaving out one thing. The spikey hair! One of the main thing anime is famous for is the spikey hair and I've been leaving it out of most of my female drawings. I have to pay more attention to that. I think at least if I try it would make my pics stand out a bit more instead of looking so plain. Mmmmmm......I need to look at more of my work.....I may notice something else O_O.